Graduate with a Dilema in Personal Ambitions???

We were doing research on Grad schools today and it hit me…

I have NO IDEA what I want to go to school for

I mean I have an "idea" but honestly I don’t know what I want to do.

I AM STARTING TO PANIC !!!

::WHEEZE, WHEEZE::

OK, I graduated with Honors with a Theatre Degree in 4 years and I feel like I know absolutely nothing remotely close to what I would need to know about the industry that I want to become a part of. Not to mention my repertoire has basically nothing of interest for any of the Grad programs I am interested in…

SOOOOOO

Little piece of paper I worked my ass off for…

NULL AND VOID

Basically I feel screwed because I can Act-for-Theatre?? I guess that’s what my degree says, but what about ANYTHING ELSE.

GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF

::Slap across the face::

WHAT WE KNOW:

- I love to perform, I know I want to do that and don’t want to miss out on that

But does that just shell me in as an actor and I would go to school for acting and nothing else???

- I have a million little stories and skits and sketches in my head

A degree in creative writing would be great but I don’t just want to write and I don’t have a background of writing or a collection of any stories as samples…

- I LOVE being in charge lol, as much as I hate to admit it I can take the helm and I enjoy it

So do I want to be a director, a filmmaker… will that put me in a box too?? I have Ideas for Game design do I jump Acting ship and try to get back in as a voice actor???

The possibilities are endless

- When this is all over…

I want my own entertainment Studios, that way I can do all the projects I want…

Reality Check…

I just have to go with my Passion and well if my Passion encompasses all of the above then I guess I will just be one busy MO FO huh… but at least one thing is certain… I will not give up.

~H00k

Some Guy's Story

This is my most recent attempt at a monologue, I am learning with each one but I think this one sounds OK, tell me what you think... I will perform it on my youtube page so you can get a real feel for it.

I am sorry. I am sorry that I am not the man you thought I was, not the man I pretended to be. I have this thing where I have to try to be the perfect man. Not because I want to be but I have to be the best possible candidate for you, well for any woman, Maybe its some kind of inferiority complex, maybe its because all the ones that "got away" destroyed my hopes of ever finding a "soul mate". True Love, It all seems like romanticized bull shit when you're getting shot down because you are "too nice" or "such a good friend".

I don’t know, I just need for you to think that I am worthy of you, that there is a reason to want me. Women come with so many prerequisites and red tape that it was not enough to be me, so I become whatever she wants me to be. I spent years figuring out how to be "that guy" and I got really good at it and after a while that was all that mattered, All I cared about was how to get "her". I don't even stop to see if I really even want her, just do whatever it takes to get the girl to pick me.

I mean she didn't mind feeling special and part of me just liked to make her feel that way because, well I could. But then we get to this point, or I get to this point and am ready to capture the next one.

I make excuses for myself saying that I am not good enough for her and she will find someone better, I never stopped to think about if she wanted to… I can't because every thing in me tells me I am wrong for feeling this way.

Karma is gonna get me back for breaking her heart, she was a nice girl. But instead I just find a new one, and she makes me forget. I see the next pretty smile, or nice ass, or whatever , and I forget. The chase starts again and I say all the right things and I convince myself I am head over heels, when I am really just taking a breath. So I am sorry, but I have to go, again.

OVER 9000

I feel like I just broke Vegeta's scanner and am about to go Super Sayian for the first time. I finally feel like I can see the door slightly cracked leading to my future and it feels...AWESOME.

Today we met a new associate Walt Cart who invited us onboard his small gaming project! I am obviously, somewhat giddy at the thought of finally working on a dream I have had since High School. If anyone needed a little boost of inspiration today, let my good fortune be your 5 hr energy shot!

Today I will start training myself, and I do mean training. The dedication it is going to take to be successful in this field is enormous and so I am changing my schedule up and 'putting in work'.

so BOOM here comes the ::BOOM:: ready or not...

Making Our Dreams come true

SO today is the first day of the rest of my life!

I know its as cliche as they come but seriously today begins a new chapter for me. Join me on this roller coaster of adventure as your Main Character and Leading Lady work to become the essence of Awesomeness.

THE DREAM

My ultimate goal: to open my own entertainment company.

Her Dream: Become a Senior Character Artist for Disney.

HOW

Well after taking 4 part-time jobs to make ends meat we stumbled across a Gaming studio that has the personality we think is necessary for our randomness!

I have also found an employer willing to give me that promotion that will allow me to spend more time on my craft.

Ideally these guys will interview my Lady and she will instantly be hired as a Character Artist for their upcoming game, then I can do voice acting for them, yadda, yadda, yadda insert fame and fortune the end.?.

But for now we are going to work our @$$e$ off Rocky-IV-montage-style, until the dream is a reality!!!!!!

Subscribe to me for more about the road to awesome and all my usual Rants!... please