FML

It is extremely difficult for me to write this because once it escapes my mind it is true, and the truth, in this case, hurts.

I am on the verge of being Evicted from my apartment. I have about 28$ in my bank accounts (checking and saving) and most of it is my fault. I have been able to do things by sheer will and determination on several occasions in my life. I HATE not being in some type of control and waiting to hear back from multiple positions is woefully difficult for me. I have been raised with the philosophy of doing the right thing gets rewarded and money will come. That you should do things for the people you care about. Unfortunately, you just can't do everything you want with out sacrifice. My mistake was what I chose to give up. I sacrificed rent money, to appease her. I sacrificed financial stability to appease her, and some logic just to appease her.

What is hard to swallow is the fact that no matter how much I rationalized my decisions, some were just plain wrong. Crunching numbers, counting on empty promises, and assumptions are my downfall. Unfortunately for me, It bit me back in a bad way.

Not a failure, just a chance to prove I can overcome.

--LIFE

Wait Til I Get My Money Right...

BEING BROKE SUCKS.

Now that we have that fundamental truth out of the way I can begin this rant. It all started after I graduated from College back in 2008. I was full of hope and promise. Despite the fact that the economy was in the worst position I had ever seen in all my 21 years of living. But I didn't care. No job, who cares I will work at school, Living at home with mom-- So, I will just stay on Campus. I was pretty carefree at the time making enough money to get by, and taking a break from well the life I normally lead. You know, the one with responsibilities and goals and aspirations.

Well it was all good until last year and I had to get my own place, which meant I had to get a REAL job. here is a simple equation for you:

Recession+Real Job= Fallacy

So I ended up finding 3 part time positions and busting my ass like ::racially insensitive statement ahead:: the jamacians on In Living Color. It was rough and I ended up being paid alot less than what they tell you I am supposed to get for having a Bachelor's Degree. Ah but it was enough to get a place!

So me and my RL GF (lol I just think its funny to have to put RL on the front of it) move in to our very own place.

Everything is all sugar and rainbows right, WRONG. I am still not making enough money so now I am almost late on rent every month. What pisses me off is that I can't seem to get ahead. I have a multitude of job offers come up, and fall through but the summer is the worst because there is NO MONEY out there. I won't be out on the street don't worry (I know your concerned). But I will be BROKE until Sept. when the School Year starts and I can get back to making some actual income.

HERE WE GO...............................................